Go see 'my' mare?

Shes not mine anymore, I'm not even sure if she ever was mine....the whole situation is majorly complicated....but, I never treated her well, I didn't abuse her, but I did hit her more then I'll ever admit. She got to where she didn't want anything to do with me, and now she's pregnant, and her foal is due in 2 mounths, I want to see her, it's been 6 months sence I said goodbye, but I just don't know if I should. I just feel like I would not be welcomed back into the barn or her heart.

Should I go see her?