I've been a little down on life lately. The past couple of months I've suffered from depression occassionally. I get everything going good, get in a good mood then something happens to bring me down. I'm sure life could always be worse though. First I had to leave my boyfriend behind to move home and it was hard not getting to see him everyday. Just as I began to cope with not having "R" around, our relationship unraveled quickly. No surprise since I'm in Illinois and he's in Canada. He turned out to be a jerk anyhow. I finally said enough was enough when he totally blew off my birthday. I deserved to be treated better. I didn't care for "R" as deeply as I thought I did anyway. I never shed a tear as I called him and ended things between us. Then I met this really super cool guy "J". At first I just wanted a friend, but then I spent a little bit of time with "J". He's everything I've been looking for. One problem, I don't think he likes me as much as I like him. Everything went great for about two weeks then I got the whole lets be friends I don't want a serious relationship speach. Its absolutly killing me, but thats where we're at, friendship. I think we may have been rushing things though, and every great relationship starts as a friendship right. I'm hoping that if I give things a little time, "J" will give me a chance at a relationship. I also have the stress of deciding what to do for the winter. After spending last winter in Florida, I decided I have to go south again. I'm thinking along the lines of Arkansas. Its fairly warm there in the winter. Or possible Texas. That sounds real great. It would be warm and thats my kinda style Texas. I love the western lifestyle. I just took a week vacation in San Antonio and loved everything about the Lonestar State. So I just grin and bear my problems so to speak. After all, my life isn't nearly as rough as some others have it. Until next time, keep one leg on each side