I've been a little down on life lately. The past couple of months I've suffered from depression occassionally. I get everything going good, get in a good mood then something happens to bring me down. I'm sure life could always be worse though. First I had to leave my boyfriend behind to move home and it was hard not getting to see him everyday. Just as I began to cope with not having "R" around, our relationship unraveled quickly. No surprise since I'm in Illinois and he's in Canada. He turned out to be a jerk anyhow. I finally said enough was enough when he totally blew off my birthday. I deserved to be treated better. I didn't care for "R" as deeply as I thought I did anyway. I never shed a tear as I called him and ended things between us. Then I met this really super cool guy "J". At first I just wanted a friend, but then I spent a little bit of time with "J". He's everything I've been looking for. One problem, I don't think he likes me as much as I like him. Everything went great for about two weeks then I got the whole lets be friends I don't want a serious relationship speach. Its absolutly killing me, but thats where we're at, friendship. I think we may have been rushing things though, and every great relationship starts as a friendship right. I'm hoping that if I give things a little time, "J" will give me a chance at a relationship. I also have the stress of deciding what to do for the winter. After spending last winter in Florida, I decided I have to go south again. I'm thinking along the lines of Arkansas. Its fairly warm there in the winter. Or possible Texas. That sounds real great. It would be warm and thats my kinda style Texas. I love the western lifestyle. I just took a week vacation in San Antonio and loved everything about the Lonestar State. So I just grin and bear my problems so to speak. After all, my life isn't nearly as rough as some others have it. Until next time, keep one leg on each side

Well its been a long time since I've been on here. It seems like life has been very busy lately. Unfortunately I had to say good bye to a couple of my dear friends. I recently had to sell both Ace and Tops. The price of gas, feed, and hay has hit me hard on top of some other finacially issuses. I so hated to part with my two boys. Tops was my first horse and I always promised him a good life and a good home. I recently realized that I was being greedy and unfair by keeping him. I had picked him up from the vets farm and brought him to the track. My farrier "T" worked on his feet and had him moving more sound. Then I hit my money problems. And I began to notice that poor Tops spent most of his days in a stall with little attention beyond the necessary care. I found out my cousin was looking for a good riding horse for his son. The perfect new home for Tops was discovered. He is back to relaxing his days away in a pasturse of grass with a young child to love on him and shower him with attention. Plus I can go see him anytime I want and if he is ever sold, I get first chance at him. Ace also had to be sold due to lameness issuses. He was doing really well and "T" helped him a bunch for awhile then Ace came up dead lame. Upon xraying his bad foot we discovered the old wing fracture was still present and he had a lot of other issuses. "T" informed me that he could get him 90% sound as a riding horse but it would take a lot of time and money. So I found Ace a home with someone that can put the money into him to fix him. It absolutely broke my heart to sell Ace again but I had no other choice after all I can't afford to keep them all. I still have my pride and joy though. Scout's a big help in pulling through this hard time. He's the only one that will never be for sale. Hopefully someday I will be able to own horses that don't have to earn their keep but until that day arrives I guess I gotta do the best I can for myself and my horses well being. Until next time keep one leg on each side